When I accepted my young husband's proposal of marriage I could not have foreseen the things ahead that I would experience or suffer. All I saw on that day was joy, excitement and passion. I could not have foreseen that "come grow old with me" was not to be. There were so many things I didn't see wrapped up in the thirty four years we would spend together. I didn't see the birth of our daughter or the many operations we would all endure to help her find normalcy in a world expecting perfection. I wouldn't see the birth and sudden death of our second born, but nonetheless precious son. I wouldn't see us moving south and setting roots in the southwest. I couldn't see my husband giving his life to God and the realization that I too needed to surrender my life to God.
All of these hidden things that I didn't see in his proposal would leave marks in my life. All of the things I've lived through have made an impact on my heart. The biggest thing I couldn't or didn't see was God walking me through each and every step I would take. Now mind you I did make sure we were married in a church. I chose a Christian church to be sure. My roots were planted in Christianity, but my surrender to faith towards God would take my husband kneeling on the floor of our tiny rent house in an unremarkable town in New Mexico.
Life is like a foggy mirror after one has showered. You know there's an image to be seen, but you can't make out all the details. God who is able to see the end from the beginning won't allow humans to do the same. He knows we might not step out in faith if we saw all the pain and suffering before the journey began!
I chose my title carefully. It comes from 1 Corinthians 13; the "love" chapter. Why? Because God in His infinite love desires to walk us through every aspect of life. He wants the seeds of faith He has entrusted with us to be sown in love so they will produce abundantly. For this reason we see through or in the looking glass of life darkly or in shadows.
Salvation is all about someone being in trouble and someone being in a place to help or rescue. God knew before He placed the first person on the planet that trouble was coming. He set up the "fail safe" plan of salvation before creation! Yeshua/Jesus is called a lamb slain before the foundation of the earth. God manifested His son to destroy the works of the adversary. He didn't see through or in a glass darkly, He saw every hard thing every human would suffer and He purposed to put it on Himself by putting it on His volunteer representative, His Son.
Each day I choose to live in has the potential to be good or to be notso good. I have the ability to allow God's grace to transform it into something productive or destructive, but I get to choose. I may see in part, but I know my Father has seen what is ahead and through love will see me all the way to my end here on this blue marble we call home. It really isn't my home. I'm drawn away from it daily by the ones who have left this place for planet heaven. The man I shared thirty four years of joy and sorrow calls me "Come be young with me, the best is yet to be".
- love never fails.
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