Water Walking Widow Woman

I love catchy titles because they do just that, catch someone's attention! If you're reading this i clearly caught yours.

I'm sitting quietly in my recliner listening for direction from the Lord and felt led to write here about this latest adventure I find myself on. I've been widowed now almost nine months. I'm more than surviving, I'm living. God has taken good care of me. God has watched over me and seen to my every need. He has even supplied a few of my wants.

I have learned from life that the journey is as important as the destination. We may have goals in mind, but how we achieve them is normally outside our control. So it has been with this latest goal; to survive widowhood and thrive alone until God brings someone for me to be a helpmeet to and for.

I have a list of things I want and need to do in order to accomplish the goal of being a successful widow. I actually am working on a new goal and that is changing my status from widow to single woman. Why? It is simply because I don't intend to spend this interim period in grief or mourning someone who is enjoying rest and reward in heaven. It is time to go on living and sitting and feeling sorry for myself has grown old.

I remember a time in the past when I met a sister in the Lord. She was so sad and almost unable to function. I discovered she had lost a son. Having lost my son I could empathize. I could empathize, that is, until I discovered he had been gone for many many years. She had never stopped mourning and had allowed the demonic spirit of grief place in her mind. It had taken over and she was slave to it. I had to step back and look at the whole situation.

It's easy to get stuck in a place where you become a victim and then every demonic spirit will use you as a punching bag. I learned all those years ago to be on the watch for that spirit. There is a time to mourn, but in the midst of it one should also be looking to live, to thrive again. Mind you it may take longer for some than others, but mourning that takes years isn't mourning, it's grief.

The world has "grief counselors" and is basically unaware of the difference between mourning and grief. Mourning is a normal process of healing after the loss of someone or something such as a dream or a personal possession. Grief comes in disguised as mourning, but ends up in self absorption and victimization. It is not good and can be very destructive.

Today I'm searching for joy again. I'm confident I will survive and even thrive in spite of the fact my husband is gone. I've got goals to work on, a renewed purpose for my life and I'm busy about the Lord's business. I still face challenges and things I need help with, but God continues to send help for each situation when and IF I trust Him and ask Him in faith.

I now see each day as an opportunity for God to beckon me out of my boat, the S. S. Comfort Zone. He's parted the Red Sea so helping me walk on water is a piece of cake for Him. I bet He likes angel food with royal icing!

Cerise


- love never fails.